I mean you do nice things because you'd like to think that you are a good selfless person. However, it all comes back to you!! you do it for you! No one really does anything for anyone else without expecting something in return...
Life is a bitch!! you can't do anything without being accused of having other motives!! It's like karma isn't really karma when you expect it!! And fate isn't really fate!!
Oh sure you met this amazing guy and it was fate and all!! well, I've got news for you,, IT WASN'T!! It's all bullshit we tell our selves..
In reality you could have fallen in love with any other guy and still thought it was fate!! Don't get me wrong I still believe in soul-mates and I still think there is a single person for each one of us... But its when you fall in love with a person so deeply that you stop thinking about any other guy that way (or girl :P) That is what having a soul-mate really means
It has nothing to do with your souls really!! or your hearts,, The heart is just a muscle and it's all in your head..
Last night I had this horrible dream about some girl that is in love with the guy I'm in love with... Me and this guy never really talk anymore, we tried too be friends but its too hard.. Anywho in the dream she was being an ass to me and kept on telling me I was UGLY in her own way!! It really didn't bug me, because even for a little while I had what she would kill for!! But did I still have the right to feel that way ?? Was she really meant to be with the guy and I stole her dreams?? She was in love with him long before I knew him!!
She is still crazy about him!! Does this mean you can never get passed your first true love?? It's taking me more than a year and it still feels unreal to me.... It's like this little part of me still has hope!?!?!
I try not to have hope, but I do!! because I was told waaaay too many fairytales
"If you want your children to be intelligent, read them fairy tales.
If you want them to be more intelligent, read them more fairy tales."
~ Albert Einstein
Thanks mom and dad for living by that -_- Oh and a special thanks to my older brother whos fairy tales were the worst and still managed to have a happy ending !! I mean Einstein was intelligent but did he really have a heart?!?! Did he really think fairy tales and stupid happy endings will make everyone intelligent?? I've got news for you Einstein, when you're in love you you've got no brains left!! and frankly love is bullshit!! It hurts more than it feels good!!
Happy endings are just unfinished stories....We live to have such great expectations of life, that we forget to live and realize that this is all we are ever gonna have!!!!